Rainbow is right - read about Stuart in the book Mindsight. His therapy story and how he grew is very inspiring!

I am 4+ years and still struggling. I suspect that place of struggle is a place not only of my present, but a place I got stuck in long ago.

I do wish I'd been brave enough for therapy when I was much younger, and sometimes am overwhelmed by that lost opportunity and all the other things lost as a result of not having therapy to help me when I needed it then. I also think it's harder to be in therapy at an older age when emotionally and internally I feel so much younger.