SAWE - thanks for the compliment. I am sorry that you have had to struggle so in going to therapy but glad you have stuck with it and hope that you reach the point that you can open up and share what you need for your healing.

the way i ended up in therapy had something to do with my approach to therapy i think. I am 48 and have been untreated bipolar since my teens. Rapid cycler with suicidal depressions. Then ptsd on top of that from childhood abuse. In 2007 the PTSD kicked in real hard and all the memories resurfaced aggravating the bipolar even worse and my life just exploded into a million pieces. I was hospitalized against my will. So therapy was about putting my life back together. I had two jobs, I was getting my degree, I didnt feel I had time to be gentle with myself. Of course I ended up spending another week in the hospital, two weeks before graduation where i spent my time working on my final project, but i got it done and graduated. But I dont ever want to be there again, so thats what gives me that courage to jump in the pool.