I was looking for help from a very early age. I never got real help until 8yrs ago when I was put in touch with this therapist. Fortunately I am able to "use" therapy very well. Its just the way I'm made, always questioning, always looking to find inner peace, never giving up no matter what. Saying all this, I still struggle to understand the relationship and my true feelings about it. Uts been meant different things at different times, but underlying all of this is me and T working well together. Is it easy? Well its easier then living how I was living before it. There are some people who are unable to use this sort of recovery, for many reasons. Age doesn't have a lot to do with it, accept with middle to old age, I always feel there's the normal recovery mourning and the middle mourning one goes through. Is T the enermy? Only in my transferences sometimes. As my fantasys are stripped, I see her as a person also who chooses all her actions, freely, that reasures me and also helps me choose mine freely.