I did kind of a risky thing tonight. I posted a note on facebook about how alone and depressed and all that I am right now and that I really need a support group. I don't know if anyone will answer but my own sister is keeping her distance, guess she is afraid I will ask her for something, and she has already said she won't come over until the bedbugs are gone. It isn't like they are crawling the walls, that is the frustrating part. I haven't seen any in about a month but I have fresh bites. I have steamed the carpet, furniture and I just don't know what to do next. I bought some diatamaceous earth so we will see if that helps but I am supposed to be the strong one and I am falling apart. I just wish people could see that and rally around me, but then am I being selfish, and attention seeking. I just don't know what to do I can't stop crying. I have been doing good more or less but these last 2-3 days someone says a harsh word and I cry for 2 hours or more. I am so sensitive right now and I just want it all to stop (not going to hurt myself or anything) I can't even sleep to get away from it all, I have tried and nothing. My therapist forgot to book our appt so I haven't seen one in about a month, I see my psychiatrist on the 9th. I don't know what to do. My dad just wants us to pray they are gone and move on. I am a Christian and believe in the power of prayer but I believe God wants us to act as well...I am emotionally spent now so maybe I can sleep. I know things have to get better but I am worried about my health, I had chest pains today and I know I have IBS maybe even ulcers, I had my screening done to see if the cancer is back and I find out Jan 4th, and if it is, who will take over? There isn't anyone else! Well, Good night and hopefully things look brighter in the morning.