I read that 'flight of ideas' is rapid speech or switching from topic to topic. It doesnt seem like that. Well it does sometimes, but for the most part I have this intense concentration on subjects that I am interested in, and I feel like extra energy to read all night about them. I notice that I'm not consistent, for instance the past week I was intensely interested in learning about software development. The week before that I was engrossed with piano playing. However, this week I am maniacally searching about subjects related to cosmology and quantum physics and the origins of the universe. I all enjoy this stuff very much, but I'm overall not getting better at any of these skills as much because I keep switching interests. Tomorrow I might be back into learning more about hiking/camping. If I try to force myself back into a previous interest it is nearly impossible my mind just gives me a big 'f you im not doing it' and I can no longer process the information like I had when I was 'in the zone' like I was before. I just wish this whole switching would stop, but it seems to control me more than I can control it. Also, because of the intense interest I lose track of time, before I know it it's 5am and then I sleep all day (i'm unemployed by the way). Is this my bipolar disorder at work or this ADD?
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