Just reading this book: http://wishcraft.com/ helped me a great deal to take back my life from the job and day-to-day routine chores that had eaten it. It gave my imagination and creativity a fresh start and a whole lot of hope.

With your commute, I would go to my local public library and check out some books on tape (now CD :-) and play them on your drive to/from work. I use to do that with self help and business books and I'd get to work in a better frame of mind (and look forward to leaving :-) Figure out ways to think about your day so it works for you; look at how you structure your days when you are alone (no boyfriend); is there a time of day that is good or bad for you? I remember when I was self-employed and started work at 3:30 in the afternoon and it was great waking at 9:00, well rested, puttering around during the morning and being out and about when others were working but then around 2:30, I'd start getting resentful just as you describe. I did not make much when I was self-employed, I'm not that kind of a self-starter! But you can learn those things about yourself and better help yourself figure out what you do like and want in your day (rather than concentrating on what you do not want).