I'm SO frustrated with myself. Every day I wake up and think today will be the day that I don't get high. And I feel really good about it and I'm really confident it will happen.

But then, as the day progresses, I start thinking, oh it won't hurt to just get a 'little' high. This will be the last time. Or I will think it's not that big of a deal, I'm functioning, I go to work, do all the things I need to do, so what's wrong with getting high. Then I cave in, I get high, then I feel like **** about it.

I just keep making excuses. And every day I feel like a failure.