My T, fairly early on, talked about integration, about "getting rid" of some of the people in my head. [He doesn't um, "specialize" in trauma and DID, can you tell??] I didn't say anything during that session, but let him know at the next session that statement just didn't go over well and was causing an almost full-on panic attack in my head. He apologized, told me that he knew as soon as it was out of his mouth that it was a mistake, and he was sorry.

Since then, we haven't really discussed the DID all that much. I was actually seeing him for depression, and that issue is what we focused on, and it's improved dramatically.

So, the weird thing is, without my T and I ever talking about it, integration seems to be happening. Two of the kids in my head are now part of me. The sentry is pissed and doesn't want to trust me anymore because he's convinced having the kids as part of me makes me unreliable. And I took them away from him. Any one out there gone through this process. I really feel like I'm weird and all alone in this.