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Throughout my whole life I have felt like I was the black sheep of the family....When I got older, I was very very surprised to learn that people I grew up with even noticed the behavior of my family towards me...I'm talking as recent as this past summer I've had people say, "You know...That was kinda messed up the way your family did this and that"....What I've learned is that I cannot change people in any type of regards...You cannot please everyone...They are who they are, and I am who I am and I make no apologies for that...My family doesn't mean harm, but the things they have done and said were hurtful...I do not hold it against them...It is what it is...I live my life minus the majority of my family..I do not surround myself with people who are or can be toxic...I will eliminate you from my circle without a second thought....Family can be as toxic if not more, than strangers...To this day I have limited contact with them and as I said, I make no apologies for that...It's not about holding a grudge, it's more so because I don't want toxic people in my circle and because I'm not a child anymore...Back in the day, I didn't have a voice...Now I do...My family is full of drama...It's to the point where, this past summer, my grandfather passed and I didn't even want to go to the funeral...My sister and I were seriously considering not going but out of respect for our mother, and to show our support, we went...I didn't want to be around the negative energy (literally) and drama...Agan, it is what it is....
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Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, & Wisdom to know the difference.
To live is to suffer, and to survive is to find meaning in that suffering
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