Ok so this christmas sucked! sure i got nice gifts and got to hang out with the people i love but the urge is so strong! Last night i pulled out my razor and just ran it across my leg just to feel, i didn't actually cut....and now its today and i really want to do it again, i cant stand it here. My mom is dating an abusive alcoholic and i just i cant take it, i dont do anything right for him. if i dont go downstairs he complains i dont hang out with the family enough and when i do come downstairs he starts an argument and then i just go upstairs so i dont have to deal with him! I honestly dont know what to do right now, i really want to cut.......


thanks for listening to me ramble