Caretaker Leo, I'm right there with you, stuck on Step One. I'll let you know the answer to that when I can put a string of 12 sober months together. Good luck to you, one day at a time is still the best answer there is, for me. Ronny O in my local meeting has said countless times, "If you don't want to get drunk, don't pick up a drink." If I could intuit that one effing phrase, I would be well ahead of the game but it's not as easy as it seems.