I have been taking pills all my life for depression but the most thing that has helped me is meditation I have been meditating now for a while a couple of months and I have found a peace that only taking a diazapam 10mg gave me.I was diagnosed with pdsd and a personality disorder.I am 51 and made a right mess of my life family and freinds have stoped talking to me not all but most.My kids dont come here only my son and thats when he wants.I love him and he loves me but we are alike and very quick temperd.I think depression runs in the family as my dad and his father sufferd the same things.My up bringin was very violent and I was sexualy abused all this I expect plays a part on how I see the world.Now with all these cut backs and money getting tight as food and utility bills go up and fuel I just hope it doesnt affect me to much.I dont want to worry about money .I do like having some money put away just for peace mind.Anyway I hope who ever reads this will take some advice and before taking pills try meditating because I had an awful time coming off saroxat the withdrawls itself was a hard slog and I never want to go through that again.So please try anything before taking pills