First, for the push to admit I was powerless, I want to thank Neurontin for his brutal honesty today (and other days) and to you Notz , for being there too, and asking the right questions. This is what the forum is all about, in my mind.

To your question Notz, was I triggered by Psych Central? The answer is that no one thing or event contributed to my slip but rather a multiplicity of things. My father's decision to antagonize me 3 days before Christmas has not helped me regain sobriety, it made it worse. I do know that I will be hyper-vigilant about engaging in certain threads on here in the future. Got to look out for number one, after all and if I'm not helping me, then no one can.

I have to say, I think I'm going to get off lightly this time. And I am learning....for instance, this afternoon, after shaking off the"funk" I concentrated on small, easy-to-handle tasks like doing the dishes, cooking pasta, hanging up laundry, making a fire; during previous, comparable times, I would yo-yo from despondency to manic "project mode", tackling all and everything, without allowing my body and mind to adjust. So instead of planning my kitchen cabinets this time around, I'm focusing on simple stuff. And maybe I can tackle the cabinets tomorrow.

I'm ok. Thank you all for being there.