If you don't know my story, my T didn't show up for an appointment on Nov 10th ,10 days later without hearing from her I begged her to talk to me and she said she just forgot. I flipped out and sunk deeper into depression. I ended up at a particial hospital day program as duely diagnosed with depression and being a pot head.

I just couldn't totally quit smoking and it didn't feel right to lie about it, so after 8 days I dropped out. However, about 4 days into it, my depression totally lifted. Years of it. Its been a few weeks and I'm still good. I feel alive and like doing things.

I also got over my T. She played with my head once more by offering me an appointment at a different office for the next day. It was a time she knows I can't come. When I emailed and called for an appointment the next week, she never got back to me.

I wrote her a letter of closing for myself and I just feel sad about it now. I saw the clinical director as a new T at the same clinic last Thursday. I'm not going back. Besides that I don't feel depressed at all and I'd rather save the money, I can not reconcile in my head to get involved with a new T.

I would NEVER have thought my T could sit there one week saying what great relationship we have and the next week it's over. It was devastating to me and she just didn't care. She had NO concern for me what-so-ever. She LIED. I didn't think I was a favorite client, but I certainly thought she at least liked me and cared about me.

If she can do it, so can another T. Not to mention looking back, the way she did therapy actually made me depressed. I remember thinking many times if feeling depressed over therapy is worth it. There are other red flags as well.

I think about it now and I feel sad for her. If she's not a psychopath, then she must feel some remorse. I like to think that she did care about me and just took a horribly wrong turn somewhere. I hope she gets back on track. I was told I am not the only one it happened to. So now I am just part of an abandoned group. They are really slow in firing her. Which is another reason I don't want to go see this new T. Its the same time and place as first T and I met. I hate walking past her office and seeing her stuff in there. I suppose I would be sad if one day it was gone also. I'd rather just avoid the whole street.

Amy