Yes perna, I am a walled castle, I've used the same metaphor with T. I explained that there were archers and wizards and electric fences and all sorts of things that stood in the way of letting someone into the castle. What that quote made me realize though, is that not only is the world locked out of my castle, I'm also locked out of the world. And yes, I do want to change that

I posted in hopes of someone challenging me. I can debate with myself all day long saying I don't want to go/i want to go. But I usually land back at square one without any verdict being established. Sometimes just getting the thought out of my head gives me a different perceptive from which I can hold the debate. Also if somebody answers "fine, do what you want", sometimes I can find the "right" answer, sometimes it knocks me off my fence. I'll get defensive but I'll fight on the side I feel I should be on.

The original post, was written about my fear of moving forward. My castle is pretty darn comfortable so the idea of changing anything about the situation leaves me stomping my feet like a toddler who doesn't WANT to go to bed.