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Hi I am new here. After who knows how many years of intermittent mild depressions and a constant nagging anxiety it got to be too much this year & I finally asked for help. I have never been this depressed before. They came up w/ BP 2. I was put on Tegretol and the depression continued to get worse. We tried zoloft and my moods got crazy. Depressed throughout but crying and strong emotions and anxiety. Zoloft was stopped and tegretol increased. Now I feel crappy from the meds and the depression and anxiety are unrelenting. My insurance only allows me to see a therapist monthly so they suggested I try IOP since my work is also being severely affected by my symptoms. Christmas was extremely difficult to get through. I am incredibly lonely, hiding in my house on time off and can't remember how it felt to do all of the things that I used to love. Everything feels so dark and hopeless. I want my life back. I am lucky to have a couple of very supportive friends, but I am sad because the little bit I have revealed to my mom has been badly received. She just thinks I am "having a hard time" and need to suck it up.... I feel like it will never get better. Has anyone here had a good experience in an IOP ? Any advice on how to survive this? Thanks.
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