You guys are all right. I just dont want to go. I just want to be tough enough to rid of this. Plus I dont want to be there for new years. Ugh im sick of excuses. Im sick of being sick. I just dont want to deal with any of it. I hate going. I hate groups. I hate lectures its so boring. Whereas I could be home, not "happy", just content, at least more than those places. I need to take care of my family, and if I go im not doing that. I feel selfish in doing so...

I know I should go, im just finding it hard to go.