I want to thank everyone who responded to my post. Your responses have made me cry because they resonate so strongly with me.

This decision is tearing me apart, as is the worry about my daughter. My husband doesn't really understand (although he tries), it's so helpful to hear from people who do....

I really don't know what to do. I desperately want another child but the guilt over giving this illness to one human being and possibly to another is horrible. I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope with watching my daughter live with this illness.

I realize it's a personal decision and I'll stop rambling. Thank you for listening