I'm thinking that it's good that you can come to this forum to explain your experience. To know that there are some of us who have had the experience of pain that won't leave. In my own case, it was the development of severe headaches that just would not go away, even though I went to a pain clinic, had injections all over my head, etc. It seemed like nothing worked, and it seemed like nobody really uinderstood. I had to finally accept that the headaches would not leave, and not let them control my life. So, even with those headaches, I carried on with my university and completed a degree. After many years, there was some improvement with a bit less severity of the headaches. Often - quiet and some rest helps for a while, but stress will bring them on again. I hope that you can find some relief for your own pain, even positive thoughts about things that you can still control and achieve, even with the pain. All the best for your treatments and/or surgeries. It's a good idea to do some research about various medications that are used for pain, and research the different types of pain. I do hope that you feel improved.