Hi Everyone my name is Tuti. I was diagnosed bipolar about 10 years ago. I had a fantastic Doc. who kept trying meds. until we hit the right combination or cocktail as I like to call it. I have been very lucky and blessed in my life. I have had the same husband for 32 years and we have been through heck and back with my illness and he still loves me. I have been hospitalized twice and do not work anymore. I can't. The depression and anxiety overcome me and make me unable to function. I feel guilty because I can't always function the way I feel that I should be able to function. I often times feel that it is unfair to my husband. I feel that I am a burden. I feel that I can't contribute. But I carry on and do what I can to participate in our life together. I came to join this group because I was hoping that I am not alone out there and that maybe someone else might understand some of what I go through. I am still positive that there are good days ahead. We just have to look for them.