my problem is a little different. I can be around people and not feel anything. I try but I just can't feel loved or appreciated or cared for in any way that gets through, and I don't want to come off as needy or pathetic, so I usually keep things casual. I would love a deep relationship where I could bare all and be able to trust and reciprocate that. I loved my Momma a lot, when she died, I kinda went numb inside relationship wise. Still working on that.