hi i was just curious if anyone els had similar thoughts. though i havent felt this way in a while, in the past i have wanted to be raped. i wouldmake myself think about and imagine that my teacher was abusing and raping me sexually. i even dreampt that i was in a prison and i was raped. thinking about this made me fear and not want to be near my teacher. it was like i had minor PTSD from me forcing myself to imagine and think about this. i really wanted to be raped. to this day i think about being abused. it leads me to do something which makes me feel good if you know what i mean. thanks for your thoughts.

so do you think that i should tell my therapist?