Sorry that things are so tough at the moment.
Being BP can be really frustrating esp when meds are not working well. I hope that you and your pdoc can find a meds combo that works and keeps you nice and stable without too many side effects.
Keeping on going - you are doing all the right things - working with your pdoc, taking your meds... etc
Glad the police officer didn't give you a ticket
Keep on writing to let us know how you are going.