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Originally Posted by Adelissa
I have a problem, I loved my mother a lot, but she died a year ago, and I am having trouble developing close relationships. I just can't seem to care about people enough and it is troubling because it makes me sound like a bad person. I can empathize and even cry over people's troubles on TV but I feel numb in real life. I suppose it is part of the depression but I can't seem to cry or feel anything except for poor pitiful me. I don't want to be the pity party girl, I want to give more than I take. But I don't feel loved, maybe that is part of the problem. If I felt like someone loved me maybe I could reciprocate. Anyone else have this problem?
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From the thread title I thought you had figured it out, but I guess not.
Yes, I have the same problem. Sometimes I dislike the entire world because I think they all dislike me. At other times I feel differently but never loved - tolerated, used and occassionally pitied (especially around the holidays) but never loved. I think at this point I've thrown in the towel on relationships - never had one that worked (I take full responsibility for it) so there is really no reason to believe that I could have one now.
Adelissa, I do hope you can find it and I'm very sorry for your mothers passing.