just an update guys

Things have settled down a little bit, after talking and (god bless his patient soul) having cory explain the whys and whens and such, its making a bit more sense and we arent nearly so defensive. The little ones understand now that hes not going away forever, and I understand that we are not necsessarily apart for good.

He explained it in such a way that i was able to let everyone see that it was all right for the time being.

Though im a little nervous because Ive been feeling VERY far away emotionally.. its not bad.. i just.. i feel like it should hurt more than it does, knowing me. I know that doesnt sound like a bad thing BUT.. i fear im not in touch with it fully and it may come back to haunt me.

Not posting much, keeping busy.

Still thinking of all of you!