I just discovered today that alot of what I'm feeling is becoz of my PTSD. I was diagnosed with it about 5 years ago, but at that stage knew very little about it, and pretty much ignored the diagnosis. Today, looking at all the factors influencing how I feel, it became very apparent that my PTSD is attacking me full throttle. So at least I kinda have some explanation for some of the blackness I am in, and it makes me feel just that teeniest bit better knowing that!