Hi everyone.

I've been feeling really lonely lately. Maybe I should explain.

I'll start from the beginning...

I'm a 14 year old boy. I live in the middle of a housing development where most houses are built for disabled people, and so there are mostly seniors living around me, except for the occasional person taking care of their parent(s.) I'm also homeschooled. As you can imagine, I don't get out much, and when I do, it's rare that I see someone my age, since I generally don't leave the neighborhood. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy listening to stories, and seniors generally have lots of those. But, you know, it'd be kind of nice to talk to someone my own age more than once every month or two.

I'm starting to ramble. When my first girlfriend broke up with me, I was pretty shaken up. I guess that's a given. But ever since then, I've always felt kind of lonely. That was a little over six months ago. Last week, I was watching TV and I saw this one show (I forget the name...) that had this girl as the main character. I was pretty engrossed in the show until it was over. Then I realised that the main character's personality was everything I wanted in a girl. Yeah, I know, the character is just something that the writer thought up, but still. Ever since then, this lonely feeling has gotten really bad. I used to listen to the radio at night to help me go to sleep, but I can't any more. I listen to country music, and a lot of country songs are about love, and they just make it hurt even more. I want to be a pilot when I get out of college, and so I've always played flying games (Flight Simulator X, or a lot of the free combat pilot games you can find on the internet) but I've simply lost my interest in them. I've talked to my parents and friends, but they've just told me that it's all simply a part of growing up. I'm not so convinced. My sister's friend is a psychology major, and she told me that I'm not really in love with a character, rather, I'm more of chasing the idea of being in love. I'm honestly not really upset that I don't have a girlfriend any more, but I just want this feeling to go away.

I'm sorry, I kind of jumped around when I typed all of that. It did feel good to get all of that off my chest, though. Any ideas on how I can get rid of this lonely feeling?