I wanted to offer my sympathy and support. Make for yourself the home you want: decorate it the way you like, have a pet (or not); and then find a way to interact with children. You can be a Big Sister; see about working with Scouts; volunteer at places that draw children like a zoo or the public library; or you could foster a child or adopt or have a child while you are still single. Men often 'fall in love' with their eyes, so I assume you have identified the type of man you want and your goal then is to make yourself resemble his physical ideal. I'm a lot older than you are and I still see men looking at me; so I am still someone's 'type' -- maybe for you your type is a tall, intelligent man who likes pie or gourmet cooking and who isn't interested in controlling a woman by harping on her weight. I don't think you should be apologetic about your weight or height; but you should make sure you look like the kind of woman the kind of man you want to attract likes. You're a tall, nice armful and some man out there wants just that in his home. I'm not saying to be superficial; I'm just recognizing that once a man sees what he likes, he comes in closer to see if the person with the looks he likes continues to intrigue him. Don't give up yet. Courage!