Totally! The only place I can be real is here, where I am anonymous. I too avoid everybody. Hurt people hurt people. I am a hurting person. I do not want to hurt anyone else. I am also tired of being hurt. To the point where I can not take it anymore. The only way to avoid hurting and being hurt is to avoid people.
No friends, no lovers, no relationships I can not control, which means no relationships.
I do allow my family in my life, but that is it, other than the T. People are mean. Even when we don't intend to be.
Sigh.