sezzie! awww! your so sweet i love you so much!
you said about focusing on my inner qualities, that isnt too great at the moment cause my brain keeps telling me im a nut case (i was only diagnosed with bipolar 6 weeks ago) so suddenly my mia has fired up again. im not supposed to weigh myself anymore (the 129 pounds was from about 4 weeks ago) but i did this morning and im 123, it feels amazing, and it just made me wanna carry on.
i know its stupid, and i really need someone who has the same problem, one of my friends used to be anorexic but i cant talk to her about it because she has already relapsed twice and i dont want that to happen to her again.
i havent eaten 3 set meals in about 3 years, it was so easy for me to skip them, i left for school before my mum got up so no breakfast, i could say i was gonna have lunch when i got home to my friends at school and then i would purge dinner, ive tried so hard to stop purging, during the whole of the easter hoilidays (2 and a half weeks) i stopped, but i didnt feel proud of myself, i felt disgusting.
i need a way where my brain registers that not b and p-ing is good and that my body is beautiful at over 100 pounds.

i hope we can be friends sezzie, we seem to be in the same boat, and your from new zealand, so your obviously amazing!

Siani x