((((((misskeena))))))) Well I checked your picture out, yes, you are attractive and have a wonderful warm smile. And your not truely alone in feeling you havent fulfilled that goal of finding a soul mate and having a family of your own. Believe it or not, there are others out there who feel just like you do, hense the growing number of dating online sites.

Your post makes me think about a friend of mine who's son is now 40ish and he is a nice man also disappointed that he hasn't really found the right woman to settle down and have a family with. He is off and on resigning himself to the fact that he may be meant to never have a family of his own. And he is such a nice man, but most of the women he meets are professionals that can be highly oppinionated and somewhat cold and demanding. Ofcourse he seems to gravitate to the more intelligent type of woman as he is intelligent himself. He has a good job and he is a good man, but that one special connection just seems to evade him, just like you.

I am not sure what your hobbies are, but you need to find ways to be in places where some of these men may be. You can join a church and be active in areas where there are different social services to help the needy, some of these good guys get involved with these activities. Join a local gun club that offers skeet shooting, as some nice men do that as a hobby, and there is nothing wrong with them. Boating activities are worth getting involved with because many men are wandering around those activities, attend boat shows etc. You can go and take gulf lessons as many nice men spend a lot of time gulfing and are single. You do want a man that has a passion of his own, you don't want a man that is a dependant only on who he mates with. A healthy man will be busy with a hobby of some kind and it doesn't have to be something that your about either, but know going in, it will be his way of just being active and healthy.

Perna is right, your not going to find a partner in the corner of your couch. Some men play golf, go boating, fishing, are in to sports, hiking, sailing, for example this guy I was describing took sailing lessons for years, now has a captains license and would love to just sail around the world. I actually met a man not too long ago that travels a lot is also into boats and is single too, he was a nice man but had no real clue in how to meet up with a nice woman.

As far as friends are concerned, well, you have had friends, but often friends just get busy with their lives and you cannot expect other people to just be there for you, and devote their time to servicing friendships. And it really has nothing to do with your worth as a person at all, people just get busy and drift away from each other. And just because you see couples that have families and it looks like they don't appreciate what they have, well, they may actually be unhappy couples that have grown apart or for some reason just don't know how to work on their relationships.

Your in a rut, but the only way that can change is if you change it, your spending too much time in the corner of the sofa and a body at rest tends to stay at rest, the same thing goes for the mind. Stand in front of the mirror and look at yourself and pat your cheeks and tell that person in the mirror that your going to stop allowing yourself to even consider that your not worthy somehow. Your now going to get out of the corner of the sofa and make a decision to really try different things, like I mentioned above.
And you don't have to be perfect at anything I suggest, your just going to try different things and see what happens. The only way your going to meet anyone is to get out of that corner and allow yourself to get involved with different things.

I think you deserve that don't you? ((((Hugs)))))
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