I keep reading my post from you guys and your support - thank you all so much!
I leave work in 50 min and then get dinner for my S/O.
Then go back out to see my T.
I feel like I wish I could cry but I can't. Really can't while at work even if I could.
HR wrote me up and threatened to fire me the last time I cried at work because I was "disrupting" the work environment! And I was on lunch and actually emailing my T for an emergancy session because co-workers were playing vids that triggered me!
But they did not get into trouble. That made me get into even more trouble!
Oh well.

So That is just the way it goes in my world. I could turn them in for that but there is no fight in me at all. Now there are no tears either.

I keep grounding and just doing what I can. I wish I could just hug my T and hide inside his shirt and be safe like a baby kangaroo.