All I know is you are hurting and that is not good.
I am so sorry for your pain.
I don't know why Ts do what they do at times.
Bottom line is you have pain and you have a need to have a space for the words to be held. My T doesn't read all the emails I send him, but he told me that he holds space for me and that is his job.
You deserve a working T relationship.
Please don't take this personally what was done. It is just your T doing what your T does. I think she would do that to any of her clients.
If the relationship does not work, you have a right to find one that does.