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Originally Posted by pbutton
I am a minimizer. My T recently used the phrase 'reluctant to disclose' in an email.
I tend to act like everything is just freaking excellent. CSA? No biggie! Panic disorder raging its way into agoraphobia? Just peachy!  Wanting to passively die? No problem! I'm doing so excellent that it's just a mystery why I'd possibly be in therapy. |
Oh this is SO me!!! The Queen of Denial! An absolute genius at holding back! My T is a fairly patient man, but he recently said to me "I'm not a mind reader." Ouch. But I needed to hear that. There's only so much he can do if I continue to hide things from him.
About 20 years ago, I got rid of the idea that all my present troubles were caused by occurrences in the past. I decided that I was just making excuses for my behavior, and that I needed to step up and take responsibility for my life. Just behave differently, I told myself. So, you may ask, how did that work out for me? Not so good.
So now I'm trying to move forward in the present, while at the same time delving into the past. T is good at linking these together, and showing how things in the past relate to how I'm behaving now. It's hard work, but things are getting clearer. Therapy can just be tough.
