I did it! I got it all out.
Some good news, possibly-because this is a new behavior (the uncontrollable drinking, not drinking in general), there is a possibility that the wellbutrin has contributed to this behavior-the timing of the two seem to coincide. I am going off of the wellbutrin, I am already in the middle of weaning off of the cymbalta, and I am going back on prozac. I am going off the trazodone and on to klonopin at night, for sleep. These drugs should hold me over until the psychiatrist reevaluates me.
My hope is that my behavior has not put me into an uncontrollable state, but I will have to monitor consumption as I go off the meds. T was encouraged because I could stop right away when I panicked. I hope that I will be able to stop the behavior long-term, because if not, I will have to change t's-mine is not a substance abuse specialist. The possibility makes me sad because we have developed a good relationship. She did say that I could also see her along with the other t, but I don't know if I can consider this financially.

All in all, it has been a productive day. I don't know if I would have taken this step without all of your encouragement. Now, on to healing!

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