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I hate it, I get triggered so easily and here comes a big trigger for the night. I wouldn't say I get triggered easily but I do get triggered easily by certain things and men who remind me of my abusers that will not take the word no seriously really really freak me out. They don't get it. I will have a full blown anxiety attack if he comes near me.
But I'm at work. He's not really doing anything technically wrong. But I cringe, I panic, I freeze up when men make advances at me. I want to scream and run. It's been my experience that when you tell a man no, he's going to do it anyway. I'm afraid to say no. But I do.
I'm at work and he keeps asking me out. Keeps asking me to marry him. Keeps asking for a hug. Keeps talking to me and tonight I am alone. No other employees will be working with me until 11 pm. I thought this man was leaving already but he will be here for the remainder of the night. He's such a creep.
One of those men who you know would be talking to me this way even if I was 9... They make me feel like that child again. The one who kept getting hurt. I don't know what to do. He's about to walk back through the door and talk to me. I just want to run and hide.
I'd rather be left alone than deal with a man who wants to ask me on a date. I'd rather be single my whole life than to be hit on by anyone... I get so worried. I will be looking over my shoulder and fighting off an anxiety attack all night...
Why do those kind of men have to be such creeps and even more so why do those creeps seem to be drawn to me?
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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