My soul and heart are full of pain today and I am really depressed . I reached the saturation point for the verbal abuse that I have been receiving from my adult stepson who lives in my house.. I cannot be called every swear word in the book so I finally reached the breaking point. I let him have it and told him off. Now I am totally depressed. As usual I got told and made to feel that it is entirely my fault and I am getting really depressed. At least that is the way I feel. I got the message loud and clear that no one is on my side. As usual I will go it alone without support. When it comes down to the bottom line my needs take last place. My spouse who I dearly love is no support what so ever, in his opinion , he is a perfect son who can do no wrong. As a result he puts up with the crap and blames me for every a conflict.


I know my stepson is sick and on disability and needs to be here right now, so I really try hard to accommodate his needs and cut him slack. No one seems to acknowledge that I have feelings too and that I can’t just keep sucking up my emotions that are continually abused by anger, profanity, put downs, sarcastic comments and ridicule. I hate being the scapegoat for everything that goes wrong around here.


I am really traumatized right now, which is what happens whenever someone yells and screams around me. I grew up listening to loud verbal outbursts. I cringe and wish I could be a thousand miles away when it happens My husband minimizes his behavior, claiming that he is just passionate, but still I am afraid I just try to keep away as best I can and not rock the boat. But I feel like I am constantly walking on eggs. Right now I am trying to focus on not doing anymore damage and pray for wisdom & forgiveness need to establish Somehow I need to establish boundaries but don’t know how. I am open to all kinds of suggestions.