clouds_and_sun, You have just written my life story. People tell me the same thing & I get so sick of it. They will never get it, they are not in our shoes.

I have always been socially awkward, don't know how to make friends. I almost have a panic attack at the thought of trying to find the door to go in to some place new...

Yes, I have a T, a pdoc & take meds. I am 54 years old & need friends.
I don't have any answers for you or me, just know you are not alone.

Saw a new T today that I really like, maybe things will improve.

Hang in there & I will too.