(((((((((All))))))))))))

Thank you all so much for being pocket riders! My T is such a wonderful T! For the first time since starting therapy, I actually was a wee bit jelous that I can't be his friend. :-) But that is OK :-) It makes me think about actually being more social!

I wish I could look at people who walk out of T's office. His best friend was there before I saw him and he walked right past me but I didn't even see what he looked like because I always look at the floor. But it was so supper cool to know that he was just there. And he is also a T. So it was like I was in the best room in the universe at that split second. Like if ANYONE would have went into that waiting area with both of them there with me that if they would have tried to harm me I would have two safe men actually FIGHT the bad guy to protect me!
Unlike my father was with his friend :-(

So back to my good stuff. T was very kind with me and my alters.
The subject matter is something so deep I can't even get into on here - or anywhere except with my T. I love the fact that he is my T. I would not make it through healing without a T who has his level of skills. It is so aweful. So so bad.

But he did EMDR work with my alters and me around this topic. I feel like he is now helping me carry a ton of heavy bricks. That I no longer have to hold them inside of me.