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Relax, now how often do you do this with him? Do you call him a lot, need him a lot?
Okay, you have to be honest with yourself on this. You have a lot of doubts going on, as you said, your having a bad week. You have to be careful not to down load on this guy, it will wear on him, not that your not worthy, but he will start to feel smothered, anyone would feel that way. Your going to have to find a way to fill your time with you. You have not found that yet have you? You need to find some you in you and not you in others completely.

You have had something bad happen to you, so your balance is off. You have to gain your personal balance back and try really hard not to feed into your anxious thoughts.
Oh, sweetheart, I know its hard, I can see that your struggling. And that is normal from what you have experienced. But you have to find you yet. Your not allowing yourself to enjoy something yet, something on your own.

Ok, I know it is hard but put the phone down, do not call him again and don't allow yourself to stress. If he doesn't call, let it go, I know its hard but make yourself let it go. What is happening is your trying to find something to control, you lost control over something so you stress every time you lose control. At some point your just going to have to work towards learning what you can control and accepting what you cant. Just because you can't control something doesn't always mean your failing, only that is what your seeing now. Make a pact with yourself that you will truely work on not feeding into stress. Hey, I have to do that too and I know it isn't easy. But you have to start somewhere, sometime and you will learn slowly how to overcome it better.

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