Then I remain very confused, stopdog. Why would you engage in a therapy that encourages exploration of feelings/emotions? You mentioned that you don't like having feelings/emotions and you work hard to eliminate them. Did someone tell you that you needed to express more?

And even if they did, you seem very self confident and sure of how you want to live your life. What makes you pursue a kind of treatment that is guarenteed to make you feel distain and distaste? It doesn't sound as though your psychotherapist's techniques are at all compatable with you or how you see life. . . Unless, of course, you wish deep inside that someone would or could convince you that you could live life otherwise. Just a thought