I was in denial for many yrs as well,
My very 1st diagnosis yrs back was bipolar, drugged up like a zombe...unable to function to the point I couln't
even make my daughter breakfast.... that didn't last long and I stopped everything.
I knew there was something wrong with me but I didn't accept bipolar....took me many more yrs to have a proprer diagnosis... and many more yrs after that to accept it and start doing something about it....
It is not easy and one thing I have learned is that it is too hard to deal with everything alone,
support and advice from people who know what it is helps sooo much,
sending you positive vibes,
take care,
Patricia xx