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Originally Posted by learning1
You said you hate having feelings and I think you agreed w Skysblue about having feelings of delight. How do you hate having feelings of delight?
Is the reason people want you to express feelings more just for their own purposes, because they like doing it? Or do people say that the reasons you went to therapy could be helped by expressing emotions more?
Do you want to say what the reasons you went to therapy are? I remember that you can't remember your childhood and you have extreme desire to hurt yourself after therapy, but those alone don't seem like reasons you would go to therapy (although they are pretty extreme symptoms).
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I just find it unnecessary to have feelings of delight (delight not being particularly unpleasant - just not particularly useful)- but I do have the various types of feelings so I suppose there was no point in me expressing how I feel about feelings.
I am lead to understand the important people in my life (not the t but the others) think they would know me better (although why that is a good idea is beyond me).
I decided to try therapy again because I was experiencing some rather extreme and crippling internal reactions that have absolutely no basis in reality. I know they have no basis and yet no matter how many times I pointed out to myself all the reasons there was no basis, I could not rid myself of them. The usual distractions failed. And it was extreme enough that others were able to notice when I have usually been able to proceed without anything showing. As far as my childhood, it seems normal enough for the decade I was born into and my parents were not complete monsters and some non traumatic csa (I am not even certain the A in csa applies) as a small child.