Ohh,I write and erase and over again.I feel as if I cannot be frank with anyone anywhere and it is so very destructive to bottle all of the emotions that I carry.My heart feels shattered,and there are so many obstacles between me the life I long for.I am deeply enamored with an individual,and that has led to what I classify as love.A different sort than anything I have felt before now.My heart feels a multitude of things for this person.Concern for their emotional,spiritual,and physical well being.Respect for the values this person chooses to hold.Admiration for the contents of their personality,and character.A feeling that my welfare is an important matter to them.Deep sexual attraction,so deep that it resides in a spiritual sphere.As in ...a soul connection.Yet we both have obstacles which have prevented us from being able to build on these things.There's been a period of being able to spend a great deal of time together,and now a period which felt forced by circumstance,where a separation was outside the realm of choice.I am having a very hard time soothing my pain,and focusing on my well being and building features into my life which will bring the ability for me to heal my baggage and build my life skills.I really feel I must censor myself.I just feel overwhelmed by the separation and the current situation I am in.Thanks for reading.