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"Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference"
Woooaaaaa...Whatta year...This year, there have been a lot of changes for me in my life...Some bad, but mostly good...The best thing by far is that for the first time in my life, at 33 years old, I love and accept myself completely for who I am...I love myself...It took me 33 years to get to this point...I was literally starting to get disgusted with myself...No more hiding from mirrors because I didn't even want to look at myself...I embrace who I am...Flaws and all...Although there have been relationships that have suffered throughout the years, I cannot go back and change what has been done...That is in the past...I cannot continue to beat myself up over things I cannot change...I can only accept myself, and hope that others will do the same...My relationship with my SO has suffered immensely because of my condition...But at the end of the day, when all is said and done, and the tears have came until they couldn't come any more, I find peace in knowing that I am now at peace with myself...Although I am not 100% where I want to be, this is a start...This is a good start...I know that everyday will be a constant struggle...And everyday will bring challenges..I accept it as it is, and can only take things day by day....***sighs*** I cannot allow more tears to fall as I write this...I can't...I cried on the way to work yesterday and pressed through the work day...Had a headache all day...
Ok...I thought it would be a good idea for everyone to list what their accomplishments have been in 2011 and what their goals are for next year...It can be anything...I will start:
Goals for this year, 2012 (in no order):
1) Continue to grow and work on me
2) Make time and effort to get myself involved in a fun activity..Always wanted to do the strip aerobics thing...Sign myself up for some classes...Don't judge me..I can't help it...
3) Strengthen my relationship with my daughter...Form a tighter bond
4) Go back to school to start classes in child psychology/related field
5) Work on my relationship with Mr.Irreplaceable. Either we stay together, or not...If we stay, I'll give the relationship 110%
6) Continue to be there for my father in any way possible
7) Stop trying to help people who don't want to be helped
8) Spend more time with my great nephew...
9) Work out more to keep myself fit...And healthy of course :-)
10) Start doing play dates...I need to find other mommies my age, with kids who are my age and mommies I can relate more to...Tired of befriending folks with teenage kids..No I cannot go out this weekend...My kid ain't grown yet...I had my baby in my 20's, not teen years...I didn't do things...No offense to anyone..
What about you?....
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Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, & Wisdom to know the difference.
To live is to suffer, and to survive is to find meaning in that suffering
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