You're right. Everyone gave excellent feedback. I wasn't able to get back on this thread quickly because of the holidays but I want to thank all who gave their time and their input. It helped a lot - a lot.

I had called my T before my session and left message asking her if she thought it would be ok to take the klonopin. Would telling the story be sufficient in having it release its hold on me,I asked? Did I really need to re-experience (or maybe FINALLY experience) the emotions?

And this is how she replied: "I strongly advise that you not take klonopin in your telling of story. The most effective thing to do is to take your time and feel the feelings. Just reporting the story will not move things forward for you in terms of being able to release the story and let go. First of all it's about learning what you're feeling about it and have the feelings come out. The goal is to incorporate the feelings with the story. And thereby the story will lose its power."

I have been amazed at how strong the emotions have been. I've done 3 'installments' so far and each day after session I'm totally wiped - physically, mentally and emotionally. I had no idea it would be this tough. Each time I vow that I won't continue but I have.

Incredibly, I am seeing some internal movement now in the loosening of the power of the story. It isn't finished yet but I think I've become a believer. You guys were right. How this is possible just boggles my mind. I don't understand it. It makes no 'rational' sense. Trusting the 'process' and trusting my T have helped. When I'm able to let go of my resistance and go into uncharted territory, it has ALWAYS been beneficial - ALWAYS!!