well, I think I might have lost my doctor now. I am not positive. I tried to call them about my new therapist and they said they were busy and can they call back and they have not.

I have major abandonment issues and I want to not have to sit by the phone. Or toady to them and call again. I am pretty sure they are very annoyed with me about my med issues and my freakout in their office when I could not find my wallet and when I did not want them to inject me with ativan and benadryl together.

Then my new therapist showed up today and after she tested me, she decided not to see me and would not tell me how come.

So, I am left high and dry again.

I can't keep putting myself in places where ppl can't h elp me. *And NOT BE HONEST ABOUT IT*. I can respect them if they come right out and say, "Billi, I don't know what to do for you. Your problems overwhelm us and we can't have this going on." I hate excuses and little stories.

I am an honest, no frills, tell it like it is consumer. I strongly dislike professionals' attitudes surrounding their own insecurity about their money or their job or their prestige.

If I need to correct a problem or stand up for good therapy, I don't need retaliation!

I will learn to sleep on my own.

thanks,

Billi