irishsh, I have followed much of your life path to now. I really do not feel that you need to apologize for anything. You take girl - that is what you need to do right now. The day will come and you will be able to give ... and you know ... even if that day doesn't come, it doesn't matter .. I know I have been enriched by sharing some of your pain. Please continue to take all you can .... and all you want. It is what we are here for.

With love ....