I can understand the way you feel Nicole, but you don't deserve the pain. No-one deserves to be hurt. Is there anyone you can talk to about the concerns you have with your family? Sometimes getting it out to a neutral party, or even just on paper, can help you get a new perspective on events.

And even if you did make a mistake with your family, everyone deserves forgivness and a second chance. What is more important is what you do to get up again not only the mistake that made you fall.