I've had the same problem all my life. No really ALL my life... My 1st friend ever is a boy, my 1st bff a boy, the 1st girl i became friends with at age 7, said I was too wild for her, and I had zero interest in dolls and tea sets. Early school years I tried making girl friends, that ALWAYS ended badly, and as I got older, some girls branded me for hanging out with the guys, so I had to deal with a nasty hurtful reputation at home and at school. Ffwd to HS, every girl i tried to to befriend either stabbed me in the back or entered me into some contest without notifying me. I ended up having a clique of all guy friends, whom I still have contact with. I've never felt that any of these girls would eventually turn on me, as i have a flaw which makes me always see the good in people anyway... I mentioned it to 1 of my friends and he said that females probly find me threatening/intimidating, b.c I don't try so hard, or at all. I just strike up a convo, without any intentions beyond conversating and voila... Also, I don't really understand or relate to women emotionally ( I have 2 cousins a sister and 1 friend) their actions and reactions baffle me, esp in the context of a romantic relationship, so i tend to avoid those convo's as my views and opinions aren't welcome... So yeah, I hear you hun. Btw, I really don't think it's your fault at all! XOXO